By now, many of you are aware that Lydia's MRI revealed worst case scenario. And almost a week later, I'm still in shock. God's been feeling very distant to me over the few last days. My anger built up to the point where I finally cried out to Him in the shower, asking if He even gave a shit about me or my precious baby for that matter. A few moments passed and my crying controlled, the word Battlefield crossed my mind. I thought it was kinda weird. Battlefield . . . Battlefield . . . I couldn't place why it sounded familiar to me. So I googled it and this popped up:
When I'm in over my head.
When I'm caught up and afraid,And my strength is failingIn the presence of my foesYou anoint my head with oil,'Til my cup's overflowingYou make me sing on the battlefieldYou make me dance through these tearsYou grace my heart to believe againYou make me sing on the battlefieldWhen I'm in over my head.When I'm caught up and afraid,And my strength is failingIn the presence of my foesYou anoint my head with oil,'Til my cup's overflowingYou make me sing on the battlefieldYou make me dance through these tearsYou grace my heart to believe againYou make me sing on the battlefieldYou make me...You make me sing on the battlefieldYou make me dance through these tearsYou grace my heart to believe againYou make me sing on the battlefieldArise! Shine! Arise! Shine!For the glory of the Lord is risen on youArise! Shine! Arise! Shine!For the glory of the Lord is risen on youArise! Shine! Arise! Shine!For the glory of the Lord is risen on youArise! Shine! Arise! Shine!For the glory of the Lord is risen on youAnd I will sing on the battlefieldAnd I will dance through these tearsYou grace my heart to believe againAnd I will sing on the battlefieldYeahAnd I will sing on the battlefieldAnd I will dance through these tearsYou grace my heart to believe againAnd I will sing on the battlefieldLeaning, LeaningSafe and secure from all alarmLeaning, LeaningLeaning on the everlasting armsLeaning, LeaningSafe and secure from all alarmLeaning, LeaningLeaning on the everlasting armsLeaning, LeaningSafe and secure from all alarmLeaning, LeaningLeaning on the everlasting armsI'm leaning on my rock and my defender
I still don't feel like my faith has had this magical rebirth yet, but I do know God hears me. And this song is my battlecry.
He hears you! 💗
ReplyDeleteThe Lord is near- he has not forsaken any of you. He can handle your honest cries - give it all to him.
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